u/HeadCaterpillar4838

I want to do something crazy. So a little bit about me I am a 23M, I have gone through 5 different colleges in the span of 3 years, dropped out, I have worked roughly close to 20 different jobs in my life, and at this point I consider myself a jack of all trades. I have always wondered why is it that I couldn't stick with anything what is it that is wrong with me, why is it that when I look at people that work the jobs they work or live the lives they live, they feel content with it and like it was almost meant for them. I mean I was always a smart kid, I dropped out of college with a 3.9 GPA and I rarely studied because I was never interested in any of the material I was being taught and it felt like a waste of time to me like I could be doing something more so I wasn't happy. After I dropped out I worked at a ski resort in a mountain town and that was probably one of my favorite experiences ever beyond being broke. However, I knew that I didn't want to be a ski bum and so I left that mountain town but ever since I left it I find myself talking about it and the crazy experiences I had there. Normal city life feels very boring to me and I think its because I have a strong need for intensity and I feel things deeply. I just have a strong almost bodily urge to chase anything that gives off awe, that sense of huge wonder, pushing past limits that humans thought were possible, exploring/adventuring into the unknown and discovering incredible things and stories, and most importantly of all is that sense of feeling alive. I think that is why I feel closely drawn to extreme sports such as skiing/snowboarding, rally racing, ect... as well as science and expeditioners going into the mountains, sea, or even space. I find myself constantly wondering and obsessing over these topics and I want to show the world these stories of people that push the limits and set new standards as to what was possible. People have said that I am very good at photography/videography and I really obsess over editing and shooting because it is like trying to take this vision and emotion out of my mind and turning that into something others could see but what has been holding me back for so long of making this dream happen was that there was no money in it and it wasn't practical. However, a "safe" career for me doesn't really feel safe because it feels like a slow death and I dont think I could stick with any other path beyond this for very long so what choice do I have but to follow my dream. Also I was thinking that maybe along the way it will turn into something else and I will spot others opportunities within this realm and the dots will eventually connect to where I need to go. The toughest part for me is taking the first step right now and trying to figure out what that looks like practically, and I would love thoughts, opinions, comments or whatever people would like to share, I just thought I would rant and share the first part of my new journey of chasing this dream/mission to create a world that is more alive.