Please help me
Hi, I'm going to take a drop this year (1st drop) and I have zero idea what to do. I can't concentrate on anything and I have been bed rotting for two months. Both my 11th and 12th are wasted and I'm also a HSC student. I took two integrated class cource from aakash but I was not able to concentrate or anything and in 11th grade a personal loss happened and my grief is still continuing. Please help me, how do I start and where do I start?. I'm one of those people who has starting trouble but If I sit I can continue for hours but now im not able to do it. I can't read a single sentence and understand it. Now I have been enrolled into a coaching in my state with hostel and the classes of either supposed to start in June 4 or in July (because they are also providing test and coaching stuff for re neet student batch). At first I was unable to get admission there because of my low board marks but somehow we got the admission. Also the fee is very expensive but my mom is very supportive. I don't know what to do, I really want to study. Im very sure that all the students in my batch will be much smarter than me. I don't know anything from the syllabus, my organic chemistry is worse than 0 and physics is also bad. I get drowned in thoughts and I also have sleeping problems. So can you please give me some advice? You can also be rude I don't mind.
Thank you.
Marks obtained
10th- 98%
11th- 86%
12th-85%