I m sinking deeper into my own thoughts as I heal
Today’s marks 5 months after my acl, mcl reconstructions and meniscus surgery. I can walk pretty normally and go up stairs easily, I just started training the quads. I am impressed by my progress but I am really struggling more and more as time passes. I am less focused on my uni studies as when I couldn’t even bend the leg. I can only think of the 12+ months I have lost, being away from my hobbies, my job, my friends.
I am closing myself of from my friends as I can no longer go out on activities with them and don’t wanna burden them with my sadness. I don’t have any romantic partner and can’t imagine finding someone with my current mental state. My accident has really shattered my confidence in my career and life choices.
My physio and surgeon are confident that I ll be able to redo all my activities but I just need to be patient.
I attend physio religiously, 2-3 hours a day. But I am not sure I m going to be able to recover mentally before I can redo my sports.
Can anyone relate to what I am experiencing? How did you overcome the mental pain of knee injuries? I feel like no one without my activities as I never pursued any kind of non physical activity, I am trying to read books and learn piano but only cheap dopamine fixes make me forget my life.