u/Helpful-Wear-356

Feel like I live my life behind a smoke screen
Never fully feeling known or seen
Like background, filler, inconsequential to my own story
Wrapped in numbness in nothing
Until everything comes to the surface
And I can barely breathe
There’s no middle ground, no way to just be
It’s cold lonely detachment
Or so much feeling it’s suffocating
Every day a question of if I want to keep fighting
To make my way to the surface
Or allow myself to sink and fade away