u/Hero_Killer_Stan

So let's suppose she is Diya(20F) nd I'm Ramesh(18M)..

I had crush on her jb se hmlog same schl me the...she was my senior...but Now we both r NEET droppers...

So On 23 aug, I confessed my feelings towards her...she accepted it, but after only a few days she told me that we can't be in a relationship...

I understood why she was confused...bcuz she is the older sister of a friend of mine (who is my junior) nd also she is older than me...

But I didn't understood why didn't she stopped me that day...bcuz her replies were the things which were giving me the motivation to go for the risky texts...nd she was replying back with a more risky text...

I told her okay...but I really liked her...she told me she was sorry for playing with my feelings, but I told her it's fine nd was genuinely happy that she confessed whatever she felt... (nd also ab mujhe guilt nhi feel ho rha tha)...

But we continued talking....nd the thing is I'm confused...she says she loves me, but doesn't want to come in a relationship with me...nd sometimes she even refuses about having feelings for me, nd tells me how bad single sided love feels...nd then again she talks to me like in the attached pic nd sometimes even more clingy...idk what's going on in her mind, if she genuinely likes me or not(cuz we don't chat like friends, but also not sure what we r)...

Atp Idk ki Iss pyaar ko kya naam du?

Honestly I need a 3rd person's pov nd advice about what should I do...I really like her...but also have the guilt cuz she is the older sister of a friend...she doesn't have any other guys(I'm sure about it)...but she says nthng clear, her mind changes every other day...

Yess guys...it was 5 days old...I'll tell u the story in short..

The disadvantage: She is the older sister of a friend of mine...

It happend on Tuesday, jb meri usse baat hui on text(it was very random), We chatted almost for 4-5 hours...in between I gave her some compliments, she also replied with compliments(but her compliment was wild, very wild)...we started opening with each other...after some time maine usse bola ki I used to had a crush on her nd even now jb bhi mai apne gate ke pass jaata hu ya terrace pr jaata hu toh uski balcony ko palat kr dekhta hu iss umeed me ki tum dikh jao(uska ghar mere ghar se 40 meters ki doori pr h)...nd phir ye bhi bola ki "I could have moved on but yk the problem is ki u can never unlove the person u loved once"...she replied ki she likes me too...we were in a relationship...we both were flirting...but idr kuch dino se her energy seemed lil off cuz after the 2nd day usne kabhi mujhe "I love you" ka reply nhi diya(I ignored it, it was not a big deal, I was noticing the change) ...toh Maine kl subeh usko ek bouquet draw krke bheja(iss hope me ki kuch reaction milega) but she didn't even mentioned that...toh finally in the night I told her I will ask u questions nd you'll answer as fast as u can, she said okay....nd my 4th question was "Do u love me"..she said "idk"...she told me ki usko ye baat 28 aug se hi bolna tha...Nd I felt so bad ki wo mujhe pichle 4 dino se jhel rhi h...she told me ki she was feeling sorry for playing with my feelings on which I replied Dw, I'm glad ki tumne abhi hi Bata diya, nhi toh baad me or bhi jyada dikkat ho skta tha...she tried to give me sympathy, but I humbly refused...she told me ki I'm a very kind person nd she has genuinely fell for me but this relationship doesn't feel right(as she is 2yrs older nd the sister of my 6 years old friend)...I told her to take her time nd then reject me(kyuki I had the guilt of saying this all to my friend's sister) but she accepted anyway...I even asked if she was on her dates but she replied with a big "nooo"...

Nd the fact was I liked her, I really did...

We brokeup yesterday...

Idk what to do...

Except, "This too shall pass" ya phir "paani pee lo"...

Like I talked to this person...later I came to know she was a girl...we were talking well...and she disappeared mid chat...and not just her, I've talked to many people(both boys and girls)..but after some time either they stops replying or they delete their account...and the fact that I haven't said anything bad to nobody...like we talk pretty fine nd they stop replying mid convo....

This doesn't happens with me only, right?

I was roaming aroung in a mall, suddenly a thought came into my mind and I went to find a book written by "Bashir Badr", insted of finding any of his work I found this...Didn't bought it thou..😭

I'll go first:

The first one is "The doll people"..(U guys should check this song, trust me It's a good one)

And the second one is "Big dih Randy"..😂

This is my current bookmark😅😅...

What's ur bookmark btw?😅

Not today but it happend on Tuesday, so Currently I'm studying in an institute preparing for NEET and also for boards...and it has been almost 4 months since I joined it..I'm not a regular guy and also talks to only 2 people in the class who are my friends..so On Tuesday, when I was returning to my hostel after my class, I saw two girls standing a little ahead of me and staring at me but I ignored it thinking "why would they look at me" and I continued walking...when I was about to cross them suddenly one girl left her and went away( I couldn't see her face cuz there was not much light there) and the other one said "Hii" to me and I replied with "hlow" with confusion...tbh I'd never seen that girl before cuz whenever I went to the class I sat with my friends and was not interested in relationships and all, so I mostly ignored the girls..but judging from her t-shirt, I guessed her to be my batchmate..I thought she'd ask me for notes but why me?..cause I had been present in a very few classes in the past two months...she with a smile onnher face introsuced herself to me and my intoverted ahh was just listening to her like she was giving a lecture,while I was trying to process all of this, I was shocked when she asked me If use any social media, like snapchat or ig and I humbly replied with a "no" cuz I didn't..and she was like "okay, my friend wanted it" and I replied with an "okay" and then she asked me for my name and after my reply she said thanks and I said "most wlcm"...I didn't knew what to say, It was my first time, I tried to be as honest and humble as I could be.

According to the routine Tomorrow is the next class and I'm confused If I should go or not.

Updates: I've posted it what happened today, if u guys want to then u can check it.. And yeah she did approach me today by herself.