So the last six months I tear every time I have sex. It didn't hurt until I'm finished and peeing and I see blood, but I'm just so confused as this has never happened before until I ended up tearing during break up sex with my ex...( Long story short, love of my life, only man I've ever been able to cum with, been a wreck since he left, all that fun stuff. )
I have a long term FWB that I end up going back to whenever we are both single and ever since that first tear with my ex that night, I seem to tear everything we don anything sexual. I know I'm always weirdly tight, and I'm in my 30s so I'm sure things are changing in my body but it just worked for me especially since I can't go to a dev anytime soon due to money issues and finding one that takes me seriously with my anxiety disorder is best impossible.
I wonder if trying lube will help, even though I've never needed it before or if it's a psychological issue idk. Like we still have sex and he checks to make sure it's not bad, and it always heals in a few days but it's so frustrating. I feel like I'm broken ugh. Any advice? Like I know it's nothing serious but I just miss not hurting my after sex ugh.