struggling with the mental side of it all
I’ve been dealing with a moderately bad back injury for the past two years. It’s your classic story of feeling pain, dealing with it, hitting a breaking point, going in. rinse and repeat. They found an L5S1 and L4L5 bulge that was causing some nerve compression. I went on some meds, it go better for a while, but it always gets worse again. Just recently I was hospitalized for a day because the pain was so bad I couldn’t walk.
Now, for the past month I haven’t really been able to work out at all. I’ve been going for walks and doing little core videos as much as I can, but it’s not enough. I know I’m gaining weight and losing all the muscle I’ve managed to regain since the injury but I don’t now what to do about it. I’ve always been very active, even was a collegiate athlete for a few years, so this feels like I’ve lost a part of myself. It doesn’t help that have struggled with disordered eating my entire life. I just feel so out of control and scared that it’s never going to get better.
The doctors aren’t much help. I’m sick of being constantly sedated or told that I just need to scale back my activity level. I actually would rather die. I don’t know how to deal with this and at this point don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel. I’m only 22.
Any recommendations for dealing with this would be great, or workout programs that you’ve found help or ways to stay active (I don’t have access to a pool before anyone suggests that). I want to feel like my body is under control again. I’m so tired of this.