I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this
It feels so silly for me to be ranting about this. Some people are years into corporate America while I’m only 5 months in. I just graduated college, I got a job immediately in a company’s HQ as a UI/UX designer. I should be grateful, I should be thankful, I should be proud… I’m fucking miserable. I’m miserable and blinking tears out of my eyes when I have to force myself out of bed every morning. Every Monday feels like a countdown to Friday. Every Friday feels like an anxious dread building till Sunday night. Maybe it’ll get better as time goes on, maybe I’m still adjusting, I hope that is the case.
Every older adult I talk to just says “welcome to adulthood”. There’s no actual optimism or hope or future to look forward to, it’s just a shitty reality that everyone sits down and accepts. Why is this the standard? Are people supposed to live like this? How do people tolerate actual years, decades, of this?