I feel like moving here has ruined my life and there is no way out
I've been living in Japan for a month now, and I've begun to consider just ending everything daily. I'm not even a human being.
I was originally rejected from jet because my manager wouldn't write me a reference. She used ai to generate it because she couldn't be bothered, which caused my application to look fake.
The jobs I work at is not what it said. I was passionate about teaching English and languages in general, but now I'm nothing but a glorified babysitter at an almost 10 hour daily shift, getting berated by management for not getting children to speak, but the children can't speak because there's 50 of them in a classroom distracted because they're sitting next to a classroom of 70 divided by a paper wall.
The housing my company provided has cracks in the walls so large, you can stick your hand through them. It's miserable. My work hours leave me with no time to do anything (leave before things open, get off after everything is closed).
I've been sexually assaulted three times in only a month (not chikan or train stuff, held down and grabbed while they tried to get me to agree or to a quieter area), my other coworkers ignore me or actively berate me, and I have no other options.
I don't feel like I can maintain this, but I can't find a way out. Other teaching jobs are mostly just after school daycares pretending to be language schools like my current one, and switching careers here seems so out of reach, there is nothing back for me in my home country, and I couldn't start up again there with my current lack of resources due to this move, so this is really it for me.
I'm not looking for the same old "welcome to the real Japan" or "working here is different from visiting here" Reddit comments. Just wanted to vent and worst case, leave something behind if I finally do call it. I just want to be a human being.