u/Holiday-Walrus8112

So i had a severe bout of insomnia which caused a psychosis I was given 5 mg of olanzopine to take nightly.. it definitely worked how ever theres been some nasty side effects. Low energy weight gain memory problems. I feel dumber. I have been on it since august 20th and i have a psych appointment october 8th. I am going to request a tapering dose so I can get off this drug. What i worry is that they are going to be like “its helping you sleep so we are going to keep you on” if thats the case im just quitting cold turkey. Ive read complete horror stories about the drug and im super scared of what its done and doing to my brain. Has irreversible damage been done to my brain?

I’m writing this with the help of AI because I’m currently having significant difficulties with my memory, concentration, and ability to organize and articulate my thoughts. I know what I’m experiencing, but I’m finding it increasingly difficult to explain it clearly in my own words.
Every night, I seem to have the exact same experience. I usually go to bed around 10 PM, although I don’t look at the clock while I’m lying there. I lie awake for what feels like hours. I try getting up every so often, but eventually I go back to bed and continue lying there.
What is particularly strange is that I don’t experience the normal feeling of becoming sleepy and gradually falling asleep. I don’t feel myself drifting off. Instead, it feels as though I go directly from being completely awake to dreaming. I will suddenly realize that I am dreaming, and then at some point I wake up and it is still dark outside.
I’ll lie awake again for what feels like approximately 20 minutes, although I have no reliable sense of time, and then exactly the same thing happens again. I go from feeling completely awake to dreaming without noticing any transition into sleep. I wake up again, it is still dark, and the cycle repeats. This continues throughout the night until it starts getting light outside.
Sometimes I continue this for longer into the morning, but the overall pattern is the same: I feel completely awake, then suddenly I’m dreaming, then I’m awake again. I don’t have the normal sensation of getting sleepy, falling asleep, or waking up from sleep.
The effect this is having on me during the day is becoming very difficult to cope with. I have frequent headaches and my memory has become extremely poor. My days feel like a haze. I can remember talking to people, but I often can’t remember the context of the conversation. I can remember individual events, but I have difficulty remembering the order in which they happened. I’m also finding it harder to remember people’s faces.
I constantly feel disconnected from what is happening around me. I describe it as feeling like I’m a million miles away or like I’m experiencing everything through a fog. I have difficulty feeling present, concentrating, thinking clearly, and articulating what I’m trying to say.
The strangest part is that despite feeling absolutely terrible physically and mentally, I don’t actually feel sleepy. I don’t have the usual periods where I’m yawning, nodding off, or feeling like I could fall asleep. Instead, I feel continuously awake