I was a catfish for 6 years.
I catfished multiple dozens of grown men when I was 12-17 years old. It haunts me everyday. I never received money but I did get gifts and even proposals. One guy drove 8 hours to see me and sat outside my window but I wouldn’t let him in or see me. I dated one 2 guys for almost 4 years and changed their lives. One guy even promised me he would find a way to ruin mine. He has never shown back up in my life but as each year passes I get more and more anxious. and now I’m 29 married and living a life I never imagined. After 17 I never again lied, I started talking to people using my picture and I found out that I am likable to handsome men and women. So my confidence was healed. Here’s the thing I never saw coming, The summer before my freshman year of college I met a guys about 19 years old online and we spoke all night for hours and we both connected incredibly. Well, I stayed connected to him over the years of college on and off and I started dating people and exploring my own. But I always went to him for advice, flirts and genuine friendship. I got into a serious relationship and cut off all contact with him and as soon as that relationship ended we started again. I must remind you, I never met him in person , every time I would get into a serious relationship we would go radio silent. Same in his need. The last 4 years, even though I am married, I have been talking to him more. Just as friends,,, to this day we haven’t never met but he knows more about me thank anyone in this world. I think bc of all my years of catfishinf I was afraid to meet an internet friend….he’s many miles away and we are both broke people too but now I’m married so I feel like I should never meet him bc I am scared that if I do,,,,I might just see my soulmate.