u/Honest_Elderberry372

I will try to keep this short. If you have seen any of my older posts you know I moved from the west coast to OH a year ago next week. Was never a cat person really, and low and behold one day on my morning walk I discovered a kitten dying/starving and thus began my journey into feeding what is now 25-35 cats roughly and TNR 14 as of last week.

The original plan when I got here was to live with my Dad and his wife while I learned the area and saved for a house.. our target was for one year, a very cool and generous thing for them to do and overall an amazing experience so far.

Well it has now been a year. I have saved enough money to really start looking. The problem is, the area they live is very rural and far out there. The houses listed are few and you have to be very patient to find anything. My original plan was to look within 30 miles. Now, there is no way I can possibly abandon these cats I take care of. I just can't stomach the thought.

So, I keep looking and praying I find something I will love that is close enough for me to keep doing what I am doing. Everyone I know thinks I am crazy to make a decision revolving around cats. A lot of people think they would just "be ok", they are "wild animals" and will figure it out. I am really struggling with this decision. Do I really narrow my entire search down for these little souls knowing it drastically cuts my options ? Am I crazy to make such a huge life decision about this ? How did I get myself in this conundrum lol. Is it even possible to consider trapping that many cats if I do find a place that is just too far away? How cruel would that be to move them ? I would then have to find a place with a large lot of land obviously.

I really do believe in the power of prayer and that God makes a way, so I pray every day for a clear answer, a cute little house to go on the market where I can take care of these babies, build my new life here, and still be close enough for when my dad and his wife start to get older.. and they are already getting there ( late 60's, early 70's). They are in no rush for me to go just because it has been a year by the way. They said to take my time... I still feel a pressure from myself because this was not my original plan.

I would truly appreciate any and all advice/comments/ideas. I won't get my feelings hurt, that is why I am posting here.