skinny but big belly
Hi y'all!
I'm 21F and I weight about 58kg and I'm almost 5'4. One thing about me is that I've been extremely skinny since young because I had an eating disorder. But even when I was super skinny, I still had some fat around my stomach. And now that I have put on some weight, my arms are still thin and so are my legs, but all that weight has gone to my stomach and face. My belly just looks so odd compared to my body.
I don't have the best posture but it's not even bad, it's pretty decent I'd say. I'm constipated sometimes but even when I'm not I still have the belly fat. And don't get me started on how atrocious I look when I'm sat... I'm just so insecure and I don't know what to do.
If I had thick thighs, big butt and boobs, I wouldn't mind the belly fat but the fact that I just look skinny and the belly is so out of place, makes me hate my body.
Maybe I carry weight really weirdly because my friend and I were weighing ourselves and I was so convinced that I weighed more than her because she's so gorgeous- perfect amount of skinny and curves. (We are the same height and age, by the way) But I was shocked to find out she weighed a couple of kgs more than me. What am I doing wrong? Even when I workout at the gym, I try to build muscles, like my arms and especially my glutes; just so I can look evened out. And yet I still look ugly (especially because I have square glutes/hips; another insecurity I've tried so hard to work on). Any advice is so appreciated, I've carried this insecure deadweight ever since I can remember :(.
Thank you for reading!