I was having a good day and was like “you know what, let’s ruin it by having two 13% cutwaters just so you can get sick immediately after”. I rarely drink because I’m afraid of getting sick from it but this experience definitely confirmed for me that I have no interest in drinking for the rest of my life.
I’m really glad my sister was there to help me and I’m really proud of myself for getting through it. I thought I would be super scared but it made me feel better to do it. I’d say on a positive note, I do feel like my fear has gotten a little better. As it was happening I came to the realization that when it does happen, I’ll always be okay and it’s just my body’s response to protect me. I think the fear just puts me in a state of feeling like the world is ending but this experience made me realize that I’ll always survive and it always gets better no matter what.