u/Horror_Show_8051

So I had to create a presentatiom for English about an authors background, and I did about 5 or 6 slides before finishing, and I had to present it to the teacher in zoom workplace and I kept stuttering or skipping works or unconsciously making up words that sounded better in the sentence and my spelling was so off. So I created the presentation a few nights before then I presented it about 2 or 3 days later and I swear my spelling wasn't that bad. I mispelt over 12 words, and the worst part was I couldn't pernounce words I said before 😭.

I literally spent an hour practicing and reading my presentation, and it was usless

I want to make some of my own but the only device I have is a school computer and I found this website called sound something and it's so confusing. One minute it's working the next it decides " let's completly fuck up everything you made"

Aside from reporting over 200 accounts monthly I've grown sick of getting flashed. Snap says they forbid certain things yet there are still people spamming OF and links to pornsites. I've given up on snap. Reporting hasn't done shit. I've blocked over 78 people and still more flood in promoting t@ys and OF. I've reported like 50 Ads promoting certain things . And snap has an issue with not having a dress code. IT NEEDS ONE. But now that I've deleted snap I'm using YouTube and im not getting flashed anymore but YouTube is now starting this issue up again with furries and therians and for some reason specifically weirdly sexualized channels ment for kids. I've clicked \* not interested \* and \* don't recommend \* about 80 times and more pop up. I'm dying here 😭. If it's not my favorite youtubers postimg, it's some animator guy fantasizing/ animating about broccoli having boobs and ect. Reporting doesn't do anything because everything keeps coming back. I pray the next generation does better

Or is it just me 😭

I have never had a real physical or emotional attraction towards anyone. Even as a kid. It's like I lack the ability to even have a crush. But I'm watching YouTube, and this video popped up, and it said, " What can depression affect?" and I watched it, and now I'm questioning if it's my depression making me lack the abilities I should have come with when I spawned.

I've never gotten turned on. And if I am aroused, it's never by a person a voice or a touch. It randomly happens. But what reddit is telling me is that it's my hormones. They are not balanced, but I don't get how that ties to having a physical attraction. Emotionally, I unfortunately have an addiction to Chai. But good news I downloaded another addicting app called Block Blast, and I keep getting sucked in, and it's hard to pull away, but my addiction to chai is fading, so that's good . But back to the being too depressed to love

I'll explain my reasoning

Reason 1

Depression hits the part of your brain that’s supposed to care. The part that makes you want things. The part that gives you that spark. When that part goes quiet, everything feels flat. You don’t get crushes. You don’t get that pull toward people. You don’t feel anything that’s supposed to feel exciting. It’s not you being broken. It’s your brain running on low battery and shutting off anything that isn’t survival.

Reason 2

Depression makes emotions feel far away. Like you’re watching your own life through a window. Emotional attraction needs energy and hope and the ability to imagine someone mattering to you. Depression takes all of that and leaves you numb. You don’t connect. You don’t attach. You don’t feel that warm pull toward anyone. It’s not that you don’t want to. It’s that you can’t reach it from where you are.

Reason 3

Depression messes with your hormones and the signals your body uses to react to people. When those chemicals get thrown off, your body doesn’t respond the way it’s supposed to. You don’t feel arousal toward anyone. You only get random physical reactions that don’t mean anything. Your body feels switched off because it’s trying to survive, not feel desire

And so I do believe depression is the reason I simply can't find attraction. Tell me what you think

What's the point of having all of these mods out. Like you'll just be posting, and a random bot will be like

( blah blah blah

You're not in trouble

I am a bot)

Or something like that.

I feel like it would be easier to just only keep the bots that are like

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I posted that I got into an argument with my bf and like 3 guys sent requests. I accepted, and the chat was chill until one wierdo sent a dick pic out of nowhere. We were talking about school, and he went dry for a while, then messaged back * hey* and sent a pic. I blocked and reported. The second guy won't reply after I reminded him I had a bf and that if he had any other intention, I would block him, and the last one was saying Hella weird stuff. He messaged " Hey Hey" this morning, and I didn't reply because I was at a dentist appointment, and I messaged back an hour ago, and we spoke for a little while. He asked what I was doing, and I told him, and he asked to chill, and I said sure. Then he sent this, " What pose are you in? I want to spoon you," and I was genually caught off guard because where does a convo about tacos and babysitting turn into cuddling positions. And he sent another message when I didn't message back. And I didn't read it all. I just got really uncomfortable and blocked him. It was something like, " Imagine im behind you spooning you, and my hands are wrapped around your waist, and your hands are on my hands and I'm rubbing your stomach" and that's where I stopped reading.

Idk why I'm posting this but I want to to get other opinions. I feel rude but I'm telling myself not to. I thought I'd be better on here then the other teenagers subreddit but the teens on here are wierd to.