Him…
Came into my life while I was into the depth of desires, Resisting the suffocation, I wanted to feel so bad. I wanted to drown ….
He caught me red handed, Walking into the room of my thoughts
Stern yet a loving nature he has, that makes me want to sit still and watch.
Watch him play with strings of my mind, moulding me and my thoughts the way he wants.
My encounters with him were like a river meeting an ocean , The river who has her own flow meeting an ocean which looks calm and still .. but in its deep down it has its own world ….River mixes with the depth of ocean.
A safe place to vent , a hold of his hand ….
my bad that I didn’t understand
The beast who wanted something else, who was in search of the dark in me …
He knocked the door of my life , The door to dark side.
And I resisted him as if I didn’t want him to enter in.
But he was the man whom I needed the most…
I needed the dark
I needed the spark
I needed his touch
I needed his love
My mind telling me to run as far as I can but not going too far where I can`t be found and there we go,
he found me again calling my name.
And I knew I was caught again …. resisting him and still waiting to be tamed.
This time he held my hand to get me out of the dark hole I was hiding in.
Just to take me to darker one he made for me
This time he took me to coldest place where it didn’t feel cold at all.
Surrounded by his warm arms.
Closing my eyes, I let him have what he wants in the dark place where, I felt most protected and safe with the dangerous him.
I hate him for being so Perfectly Imperfect.
He who makes everything so easy for me
He who acts like he`s totally fine
He who stays strong all the time
He who is cold yet a charm
He who holds my heart beat
He who tames me like a wild yet a calm beast
Yes, I want to be his only source of peace.
Yes, I want him to be mine.
Only mine!
I hate him the most
I still want
Him…