I need guidance
I did a blood ritual… doing the ritual I felt dizzy and fell on my knees. Minutes later it stopped and I continued the second round then the pressure came again but this time i didn’t fall on my knees it intensified trying to force me me on my knees but I didn’t give in the candles around me were flickering but I didn’t fall on my knees till the pressure intensified more and my vision blurred and I fall on my knees. It stopped, then I stayed there in the circle. After the ritual hours later I fell asleep I had a dream there was spiders in my water I threw it away, real life am scared of spiders I always run whenever I see them. Then a second dream I saw my dead grandmother and she had worms around her ears and she asked me to help her with it but I have trypophobia and their holes around it i couldn’t, I was shaking in my dream cuz of the intensity of the trypophobia. I woked up still trembling cuz of the trypophobia. I don’t know what to do… but I don’t want to give up. Any advices or interpretation of what the dream means?