u/HotcakesWaffles

I've had an idea stuck in my head for a while now, and I can't decide if it's worth pursuing or if it's one of those things that sounds better in my head than it would in reality.

The more I read here, the more I realize there are probably a lot of stories we'll never hear. Some people have moved on, some don't want the attention, some don't want to relive everything, and I'm sure there are others who simply don't think anyone would care.

I supported Reese and Brett for a long time. Nobody forced me to do that. I made those choices because I believed in them. Looking back, there are things I see very differently now, and I sometimes wonder how many other people have gone through a similar experience.

That's where this idea comes from.

I keep wondering if there would be any value in having a YouTube channel dedicated exclusively to people who want to tell their stories about Reese or Brett. Not a reaction channel, not a place to analyze every livestream, and not another creator trying to compete for views. I mean a place where the focus stays on the people who actually lived through these experiences.

I know some people would never want to speak publicly, and I completely understand that. If something like this ever existed, I'd want people to be able to remain anonymous if that's what they preferred.

I also want to be very clear about something. This wouldn't be about making money. I already have a full-time job, and I wouldn't feel comfortable monetizing something built around other people's experiences.

I honestly have no idea if this is something people would even want, which is why I'm asking before I spend any time thinking about it any further.

If you believe Reese or Brett manipulated you, lied to you, took advantage of your trust, or otherwise caused harm in your life, is this something you would ever consider participating in? Would being able to remain anonymous make a difference?

Maybe the answer is no, and that's perfectly okay. I'm just curious whether there's a need for something like this or whether I'm completely off base.

For those of you who have no idea who I am, my name is Ximena, and apparently after months of me minding my own business, me deleting my channel, leaving the community, and moving on with my life, Reese has once again decided that my name deserves airtime. I actually laughed when I heard about it because the irony is almost impressive at this point. The woman who keeps calling former friends and moderators obsessed weirdos somehow continues to spend an extraordinary amount of time talking about people who left months ago and haven't thought about her in ages.

Now, to you Reese:
Since my name is being used again, let's at least be honest about why I left, because the version you keep telling has very little to do with reality.

First of all, I did not leave because of Lindsay. In fact, Lindsay was completely irrelevant to me before you brought her into the picture. I wasn't watching her content, I wasn't talking about her, I wasn't researching her, and I certainly wasn't organizing my life around her. The only reason I even know who she is is because YOU made her part of the story. My issue was never Lindsay. My issue was the fact that you called the moderators together and told us that you were afraid of Aaron Smith-Levin, that he was dangerous, that he was someone you genuinely feared, and then almost immediately turned around and invited his ex-girlfriend onto your platform. If you truly believed he was as dangerous as you claimed, then deliberately creating a situation that would predictably attract his attention made absolutely no sense. That was one of the first moments where I stopped listening to what was being said and started paying attention to what was being done.

The truth is that I didn't leave because of one event. I left because over time I watched too many things stop adding up. I watched too many stories change depending on the audience. I watched too many explanations that required people to ignore obvious contradictions. I watched too many situations where what was being said publicly didn't match what was being said privately, and where neither seemed to match reality. Eventually you reach a point where you either ignore what you're seeing or acknowledge it, and I chose to acknowledge it.

What always amazes me is the way you try to rewrite the history of how people entered your life in the first place. I wasn't some random troll who appeared out of nowhere. You approached me. You asked me to be a moderator. You welcomed me into your community. I gave you my time, my friendship, my support, my loyalty, and yes, financial support when I believed you genuinely needed help. I defended you repeatedly. I gave you the benefit of the doubt repeatedly. I stood by you when it would have been easier not to. Then, when I became uncomfortable with what I was seeing, I left quietly and went back to living my life.

That's what makes the "obsessed weirdo" narrative so ridiculous. I deleted my channel. I disappeared. I moved on. The only reason I even know you're talking about me again is because people reached out and told me. Meanwhile, you're still finding ways to bring up people who haven't been part of your life for months. At some point, reasonable people can decide for themselves who seems unable to let go.

And since you seem to enjoy talking about this mysterious "hate campaign," let's clear that up too. Apparently your definition of a hate campaign is that I spoke to someone I thought was my friend and advised her not to send you money because I personally had concerns about the financial narrative being presented at the time. That's not a campaign. That's one conversation between two adults. The funny part is that I actually made a video explaining exactly why I left, and every point I made was backed up with screenshots, messages, timelines, and receipts. I would happily post it today if the channel still existed. It doesn't, because I deleted it. The receipts, however, still exist. The screenshots still exist. The messages still exist. The timelines still exist. The difference is that I don't feel the need to build my life around revisiting them every week.

What I find most interesting is that you seem deeply worried about people talking about you while simultaneously refusing to consider why they might be talking. If you're concerned about people questioning your behavior, then maybe spend less time attacking the people asking questions and more time addressing the behavior itself. If you're concerned about people discussing contradictions, maybe stop creating so many contradictions. If you're concerned about people comparing notes, maybe ask yourself why so many former friends, former moderators, and former supporters arrive at similar conclusions independently of one another.

What I also find interesting is how much time you spend talking about people who left. At some point you have to wonder why so many of your streams seem to revolve around former friends, former moderators, former supporters, former enemies, former critics, and people who haven't been part of your life in months or years. For someone who constantly talks about moving forward, healing, growth, and living such a wonderful life, you seem remarkably attached to looking backwards.

Honestly, have you run out of material?

Because every few months it feels like the same people get dragged back onto the stage, the same stories get recycled, and the same audience gets asked to believe that every person who walks away is somehow a stalker, a weirdo, a hater, or part of some coordinated campaign against you.

Maybe instead of spending so much time trying to discredit people who left, you could focus on creating content that doesn't require a villain to function. Maybe instead of talking about me, or whoever the target of the week happens to be, you could focus on the people who actually support you and the community you've built.

Because if your life is as amazing as you claim, and your channel is as successful as you claim, and your community is as strong as you claim, then it seems strange that you keep reaching backwards for the same old names instead of moving forward.

And while we're on the subject, if you're genuinely concerned about people speaking negatively about you, then stop spending so much time speaking negatively about everyone else. Stop turning former friends into content. Stop turning disagreements into character assassinations. Stop assuming that anyone who questions you is attacking you. Stop trying to rewrite people's reasons for leaving simply because the real reasons are uncomfortable.

The reality is that I don't care what you do with your channel. Make money. Get Super Chats. Build an audience. That's literally what content creators do, and I have no problem with that whatsoever. What I do have a problem with is being used as a recurring character in a story I walked away from a long time ago. If your content is strong enough to stand on its own, then let it stand on its own. If your audience loves you, then focus on them. If your life is going as wonderfully as you claim, then enjoy it.

But stop pretending that everyone who leaves your orbit is obsessed with you simply because they eventually saw things differently than you wanted them to.

Because at the end of the day, you can call me a weirdo, a stalker, a hater, or whatever label is convenient this week. You can collect a few more Super Chats while doing it. You can tell the story however you want. None of that changes the reason I left, none of that changes what I witnessed, and none of that changes the fact that while you've spent months continuing to talk about me, I've spent those same months building a life that doesn't include you.

And that's probably the part that bothers you the most.

EDIT: Added the note talking directly to Reese.