no hope left for me
this is gonna be a long one but i honestly feel like i can't go on. every single day i spend living in fear of death, every evening i'm scared that if i fall asleep i won't wake up. i genuinely feel like i have very little time left and that i will die very soon.
i started having chest "spasms" every so often during exercise about 5 years ago - they got more frequent until i kept having them every day, even at rest. been to multiple doctors: several ecgs, at least 3 holter monitors, 2 stress tests, bloodwork, even an echo. i had a holter done several months ago with my new general physician. they spotted pacs and pvcs, no afib, no other arrhythmia, no long q-t syndrome. my burden isn't even 1%, she said i had like 7 pacs/6 pvcs per 1000 beats.
lately it's been getting worse. i get flutters, "skipped beats", sudden cramps in my chest so painful it feels like someone punched me or stabbed me square in the chest. sudden adrenaline rushes in my chest and head, feeling hollow and light (not dizzy exactly, just can't describe it any other way). i burp and gag often lately.
tried so many things, magnesium, potassium, iron, exercise, meditation, nothing helps. i'm so scared that i'm either gonna drop dead or that these things are seriously hurting my heart to the point that it's gonna worsen and make me get something that will cause me to drop dead. therapy doesn't help. i don't know what to do.