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We take our cats out to play in the fenced backyard as much as possible because they love it. We’re always with them, and have taken measures (such as a feeder/bath in the front yard to draw them away) to keep birds clear of the area. Plus, most birds just know to be cautious around the giant, bright white cat in the yard.

But one bird probably thought he was safe flying kind of low. My van jumped 6 ft in the air and snatched that bird mid flight. We got it away from him right away and the bird seemed ok when it flew away. We lightly scolded the cat, but I’m secretly so proud of his athleticism and ability. He didn’t even have a running start, he jumped from a dead stop and grabbed that bird out of the sky. I think it’s a very good thing for the local birds that our cats are only allowed outside supervised and contained in the backyard.

I listen to a lot of audio books while I work because I’m alone all the time and it gives me a chance to “read” way more than I would otherwise have time for.

Today, I felt like reading Tom Robbins, and I found an audiobook of Villa Incognito, so I went with that. The. Narrator (not Robbins) sounded white to me, I could be wrong, but in any case, he had an American accent. Except when he read lines from characters who are Asian.

The book takes place in Laos and a little in other parts of Asia like Tokyo, but the main characters are not Asian and are from the US. And the narrator would read them in his normal voice. But then sometimes when he got to an Asian character, he would switch over to *that* Asian accent. You know the one. The one I was pretty sure we had stopped accepting people use in media.

The book was published in like 2003 or 2004 I think, but idk when the audiobook was recorded. I’m guessing maybe awhile ago before people started being more aware of how that accent may be offensive. Idk, I guess it’s not the biggest deal, I was just really shocked to hear it out of nowhere.

I love tom Robbins and i like the way he uses elements of Asian folklore and settings in his novels. Like how he had the Japanese American man in Even Cowgirls Get the Blues lean into the slur and take it as his name. I’ve never found his characters problematic, I think it’s just this voice actor who did the audiobook.

But I don’t really have anywhere else to say this and I feel comfortable here and I trust some of you guys. I’m kind of crashing out rn.

I haven’t been on for like a few days because I have pneumonia because I have lupus and I’m on like 4 immunosuppressants and a kid hugged me so I’m obviously going to die. Anyway, every time I’m away for a minute I worry that they banned this place while I was gone and I’ll be alone online forever or something. So now I’m crying because it’s still here, which I feel isn’t normal but it is what it is.

Because shockingly an ex sex worker struggling incredibly hard to hold on to sobriety has tons of issues and trauma and my mom has spent the last 2 days purposely triggering the ptsd she fucking caused and then mocking me and belittling me for reacting as expected and I haven’t had a cigarette in a week because of the pneumonia and I’m not super ok right now.

Like, I’m ok, I’m not going to harm myself or anything, I just really want to get high and I also really don’t and I’m in the hospital anyway and it isn’t the first time and it won’t be the last that I’ve felt this way. I think being trapped is making it harder. I wonder if they have aa meetings in here that I can get wheeled to or something lol.

Idk sorry for the trauma dump. Thanks to anyone who reads this. I hope you’re all doing better than me. We need a cool saying we can sign off with like how marines say boo-ra, also. So maybe if you think of one, suggest it.