I just really can’t do both, at least not well. We can live off my husband’s income, although it will be tight. I just know teaching isn’t the right long-term fit for me, and I want to make the transition before we start a family.
Im stuck and needing some advice. I’ve been TTC all year hoping to make the most of teacher maternity leave benefits. However, the months keep going and I’m still not pregnant. At this point, I’m worried I wouldn’t even get a full leave without staying 2 more years instead of 1.
I have been accepted to a masters program in a STEM field. I was initially going to do this part-time after school, have my baby, then quit my job and stay home with the baby and try to do school.
Now I’m thinking of quitting and doing full time school in the fall, and pumping the brakes on TTC for the summer. Then I can get a full year under my belt, and with the way the program is structured, would only have a couple courses left for the third term.
I’m terrified to leave. This was my dream, and it hasn’t worked out. Honestly, part of me feels like a failure for not loving this job like I thought I would. But my heart just isn’t in it. I see my coworkers developing lessons, problems, trying new things, and I just… can’t. I’ve only been at this for about 5 years but I already feel done.