Intoxication & performing prayer
Salam. I am heavily addicted to smoking weed. It’s been a struggle for the past 10 years. There were times where I would “accept” it and pray while I was high. I dont feel any connection and get stuck in my head while trying so hard to focus on prayer. And the latter as well. Times where I would get high, ruminate about my traumas and mistakes where it leads me back to hopelessness and that “ive done so much wrong. Im too far gone. This is my life.” Spiraling with shame and guilt. Where I give up on prayer and lose myself completely. However something hit me last night and I am back to recovery. My question is how long after consuming weed do I have to wait to pray? I read something on google that says along the lines of you shouldn’t return to prayer at all till you are sober with clarity which would take me at least 30 days. But I also heard that you have to pray even if you consume an intoxicant, the prayer just wont be counted. So now im confused and any help would be appreciated. Thank you