I want to preface: ref to sexual assault
I've never posted before. hell, I barely speak of what I go through 24/7. I've been targeted for probably 9 years now, woth only the past 3 being constant (small gaps here and there but I'll explain that). the woman targeting me is named Jessica. she first posed as my step sister Jessica who I hadn't spoken to in years..all through v2k. She used this persona and a myriad of voice alterations to make me believe my family were all out to get me, which only led to me scaring my family. I've had on and off issues with meth through the years, which made me the perfect target for not only making my loved ones, but myself believe it was all in my head.
over the years her main objective was seemingly to get me sober by terrorizing me. which I was sober for five years..thinking the meth led to psychosis. and she left me alone that entire time..tho I ruined my life in the meantime to get there. I slipped up and she was back eventually. I guess she'd stopped checking in as often. I've almost missed my brother's wedding due to thinking my family was out to get me. I've lost so much over the years ..friends, treasured possessions and jobs. my drug use was of course a factor, but her terrorizing was more than half the problem..myself being a high functioning addict outside of the supposed psychosis.
Around a year and a half ago it became obvious she wasn't my step sister. she even brought in a partner..her supposed "sister" Marissa, or something close to that. I only belive her real name is Jessica because M's constant use of the name..which pushes off J to know end..which led to her outing her sister's name.
she used all the normal tools of manipulation ...lies, voice manipulation, threats, etc. but around 3-3 months ago she introduced a new form of harassment. Dream Tech.
and I know this all sounds crazy. i get it. its crazy and unbelievable to me.
but she can send me into vivid, hyper realistic dreams. She's acted as my guide before (when she was happier with me and my actions) showing me epic worlds and games like a moving tour. one was a world I could freely move through w fantastical gear and designs like I was in a video game..but a lucid dream version.
one of which was my own funeral, another an active family intervention with details from my life so real and specific it couldn't be dreamt up..it was fabricated. another was just a field of poles with intercom blasting the most horrifying high pitched torture sound I've ever experienced. I know they're from her not only due to the vividness but her words upon my awakening...I could go on forever and give examples. she uses any opportunity during her self proclaimed manic phases to tell me as much as possible without giving away how the tech works, but everything else..she cant wait to gloat about all the things she can do to me and how she's above all others and I'm nothing. One time, she did indeed sensually assault me in one, but I'll move on for now.
she's unhinged and often manic, often giving obvious phrases, answers, etc to prove she's real. I have a list of instances like shouting answers to games I'm playing ot correcting me when I've remembered something wrong. she's given up all pretenses of pretending its all in my head but now her sole mission is to annoy/dream torture me to death.. she wants me dead or in prison and nothing else will suffice for her she says. she says the most horrific, even pedophilic things that sicken me to no end...threating to ra*e my entire family if I talk. if I knew her as anything other than a complete and total coward I'd might be worried but alas, her we are.
honestly, if there are higher upside in this system, I'm shocked they let her keep going..she's so unhinged I'd be shocked if she wasn't the one to bring this whole thing down.
Can anyone point me to anyone who's been on her side of this system and blew the whistle or been caught? I just find it impossible to belive neither has happened.
p.s. she gave me a two week break recently and then one day I referred to her as a cunt (in my head) and she came back full force.