My mother opposes my vocation
I'm a 20yo girl with a cloistered vocation… I'm visiting the Benedictine nuns and going through my spiritual process. I'm the only child of a single mother, and her family is terrible; they barely speak to each other. We only have each other.
The thing is, my mother is completely opposed, or at least she is, but indirectly. She says she's totally depressed, that she'll end up alone, that she'll die of poisoning, that everyone hates her, that everyone abandons her and betrays her, that our cat is the only one who loves her.
She's started blaspheming in a way I've never heard before. She said God is unjust, that He always takes away what she loves most, and that now He's taking away her only daughter. She said she won't pray anymore.
I'm heartbroken… I can't describe the horrible, awful pain I feel. I'm praying that God will give her and me strength, but I feel guilty about everything that's happening. I'm too sad, and it's too late to contact the priest. I just need words of encouragement…
I feel like a huge nail is being driven into my heart rn