Waiting on results
I’ve had a lump for a few months, maybe around 7, noticed at first thought nothing of it , maybe a cyst, and dismissed it. It wasn’t until I discussed it with my mother a few months ago and suggested I looked at it. I had a doctor reccomend ultrasound so I had one Friday, and they hadn’t called. I had to call today and make an appointment for viewing results in two days. I am extremely nervous and upset at myself for not going in sooner. The ultrasound appointment was 15 minutes of photos on the same breast. It made me nervous the whole time. Staring into the ceiling falling into the deep rabbit hole of negative thoughts that start with “what if” . I couldn’t wait to get out of there. I have anxiety every day that I don’t know. It’s a golf ball sized round semi-wiggly moves around lump. I have been stressing and losing sleep over all the “what’s ifs” . I’m a 21 yr old female university student who works 2 jobs so I’m always feeling low on energy, hungry, tired, stressed. I don’t know if I’ve had symptoms or this is just the usual me and that is scary part to me