My body literally tilted after pregnancy and I still dont feel like myself.
I dont even know why I’m posting this honestly, maybe because I’ve been reading posts on reddit silently for few days through my husband's id and for once wanted to ask if anyone else went through something similar soI made myself my own account. Sorry if I make a mistake as this is my first post.
So before pregnancy I was around 65kgs. During pregnancy I reached 96. After delivery I thought okay slowly things will improve and weight will start going down naturally but that never really happened. A few months postpartum I suddenly developed this really bad muscle spasm issue (didnt even know what that was at the time it happened) and my whole body literally tilted towards the left side. I’m attaching a picture from that phase because even now when I look at it, it doesnt feel real. Today too everyday after I wake up I check in the mirror if i am standing straight. This has become my biggest nightmate.
For around 15-20 days I could barely do anything on my own. Getting out of bed was painful, turning sides while sleeping was painful, walking was difficult and even standing properly felt impossible. I had to go through continuous physio sessions just to start feeling normal again.My husband was honestly my biggest support during that phase. There were days he had to literally pull me out of bed, help me walk, help me use the washroom, carry things for me and just stay around constantly because I couldnt manage basic movements alone.
But still, even when people support you something changes mentally when you stop recognising your own body. Seeing yourself unable to move normally, gaining even more weight after delivery instead of recovering, feeling weak all the time it became strangely lonely. Its hard to explain properly
What shocked me more was that after recovery instead of losing postpartum weight I gained even more. I went from 89kgs after delivery to around 97kgs later. And mentally that affected me a lot because everybody talks about bouncing back after pregnancy but nobody talks about feeling physically broken after becoming a mother. Some days I genuinely dont recognise myself anymore. I used to feel active and independent and suddenly I needed help for basic movement.
I’ve started trying to take care of myself again slowly physically and mentally both. I even started a small page after recovery to document parts of motherhood and postpartum life but thats a story for another day.
Right now I just wanted to ask honestly-
1.) Did anyone else gain MORE weight after delivery instead of losing it? If yes then how have you managed that because I am struggling.
2.) Has anyone experienced severe muscle spasms/body imbalance after delivery? Is it fully recoverable?
3.) Lastly, mentally what helped you during this phase? Because honestly I think the emotional part has been harder than the physical recovery. Although I speaky heart put with my husband but still are there other ways?
Would really appreciate hearing from other moms because this phase has felt way more lonely than I expected.