u/ImpressiveAnimal26

Honestly, I never thought I'd write this. But I'm experiencing something truly supernatural. Although I've been a believer almost my entire life, I swear that these last two years I've made a real effort to get closer to God. I swear. A few months ago, after praying, studying theology, the Bible, or simply praying (after finishing), I began to experience a kind of happiness combined with... love? I felt like my heart was going to burst with joy. I don't know how to describe it... But it was something very powerful. These last few days I've been waking up a little in the middle of the night (it used to happen because I suffered from sleep paralysis, but now everything is changing). Lately, when I open my eyes in the middle of the night, instead of paralysis, I start to feel a kind of sensation of love. I don't know exactly how to describe it. Although I could say it's a feeling similar to falling in love, it's not the same; it's something different. I feel a purer love, distinct from romantic love. It's a pure love, very intense, but different from romantic love. Instead of being paralyzed in the middle of the night, I began to open my eyes and felt love envelop me in the darkness, lulling me to sleep. I know it sounds very metaphorical, but I swear. And it's happening to me more and more often. Yesterday, I began to feel that same intense feeling of happiness with love. And I said to myself, "You again?" And I saw a bottle in the kitchen move right after I finished the question, as I experienced that love. And this is surprising to me because, for the first time, I can say that I am intensely experiencing God's love after a somewhat lukewarm life and after trying with all my might for two years.