So, I finally had my surgery. My Gyno and I went into it almost 100% sure it was going to be Endometriosis, based off my symptoms and how much pain I was in constantly. My surgery was only 50 minutes and they didn’t find any endo. When I woke up he told me that they found and removed polyps but other than that I was fine.
Once in the car driving back home I just broke down into tears. I looked into it briefly and from what I’m understanding, polyps don’t do all of the things I’ve experienced. I could be wrong but it just said they’re soft tissues in the uterine lining that cause irregular and heavy periods but they don’t cause much pain. Some days I felt like I was dying so why is it that this thing that supposedly doesn’t do much is the reason my body is falling apart? It feels wrong. This might be because I’m not educated on it and the internet can only tell me so much but I don’t know… just feels wrong. So despite having found the problem, I feel helpless. I have to play the waiting game again and hope that this really was the reason and I’ll be back to living normally again soon after I recover. Do I wish endo on anyone? No absolutely not, but I was convinced that it was endo and now I just feel like the pain I was in was made up. The logical part of me knows it’s not because the pain I’m feeling after the surgery is 10x easier than the pain I was in every day… but I just don’t know what’s wrong with me.