Struggling with post-NICU life
We spent 108 days in the NICU before coming home at about 2.5months adjusted. I told myself that I would never complain if we could just get her home. But she is a high-contact, fussy baby, with incessant reflux, who spent her first 5 weeks struggling to gain weight, and on top of that, her toddler brother has already brought home two colds and hand foot and mouth in the two months she's been home. I'm just...frazzled. I'm touched out from constantly carrying and holding her, and overstimulated by her constant fussing. Sometimes I just don't...like her very much. I want her to stop whining and smile/laugh at me. And I feel like shit about that.