My family doesn’t understand it. I sometimes don’t either. They tell me I am an addict ; irs goingto destroy m life etc and I feel like an addict too.
Right now I am dependent on it, but I feel my mind is less sharp. If I don’t vaporise, I have muscle spasm due to a major back surgery (scoliosis fusion) and it helps me a lot in my recovery and handling live.
Everybody judged me because it became a daily routine. My boyfriends understands and close friends. But I beat myself up because I used to be addicted to smoking weed and nicotine etc. I quit but I struggled with quitting smoking joints over these years too. Now everything is different and even when I try to minimise or stop, I can’t because my pain is unbearable. My post op depression as well.
Also the people outside, how they smell it, how they judge me vaporising it. I am from Germany btw where medical cannabis is legal but it’s frowned upon. People think I am a loser, even though I have a 4.0 GPA . Will be studying medicine etc. it’s really rough sometimes. Even the people from the pharmacy judge. Because in Germany u can get it from online pharmacies legally without being chronic ill due to a grey area in law. So a lot of people have prescriptions and may just enjoy weed. Because that’s the only way to smok legally , hence we have no other dispensaries anymore because of law enforcement . I can imagine people in states with more easily accessible medical cards feel m struggle.