I feel so lost
I've never felt this lost in my life before.
I took a sabbatical a year ago and I can't recognize my life.
After working for what felt like forever, I took a sabbatical in the beginning of 2025. I had hoped I'd only be out of the loop for maybe a max of 3-4 months but I didn't know how burned out I was. I basically took a leave right in the middle of depression.
I tried pulling myself out of it but I ended up being a hermit for a whole year, I wasn't able to even open my Mac until recently.
I exhausted my savings, some company shares I had hoped to sell if things went left seem to be paper money now that that particular company won't even pick my calls.
I had loaned a family member 300k and since the guy cosplays as a rich dude, I knew if rubber met the road that would be cash for a rainy day lakini wapi! Guy won't even pick my call. I am considering taking him to small claims.
I am a software developer by profession and this year I did manage to pull myself out of the hole I was in mentally, at least I am almost fully recovered. I've been going for interviews but nothing has stuck yet.
The big issue is I feel like life went by and left me behind. I am not as confident in my career or my person as I was once before. I feel like I am standing on shifting ground. Has anyone experienced this before?
How do I get my life back manze? I thought I had life figured out.
On matters regarding shares of a private company, how do I get the law involved considering I am practically broke? I know it's not a fund issue as I am familiar with the innards of the said company, and I know they make maaad bank! The cash flow they deal with is crazy!!
How do I get my mojo back? I feel like a shell of what I was once. Alafu I just got into my 30s, damn.
Thanks.