u/Individual-Salad-964

I've treated nicotine as a toy. A ballgame, group of friends, trips only. Then 8mg coffee ON became a "curiosity," nope, a habit - that has led me here. Been ON for about 18 months.

I want, i want, i want - "henderson, the rain king." He didn't even know what he wanted. I need the conviction that some parasite like nicotine won't fill that space. AND i need the conviction that replacing nicotine with some other dope (pills, drink, sex) won't fill that space. Those parasites kill the host.

I've got a good Mrs and 2-yr old twins and I'm 49. I'm grateful for this life and I don't want to throw it away like I'm going to do if i don't take this seriously.

Time to set these bags down and not pick them back up again.