beginner solo living? need help and tips about living solo as an introvert
as the title suggests. i'm not really like something who does on a whim, pero it's been bogging me down on how i, an introvert, will try to live alone. i've never owned a place, nor do i have something in my name, but i have a drive to myself that i wanna live alone [or at least with a friend to cover some expenses] but i'm still looking for a job, i'm still in the verge of months of being graduated in college, and living in a toxic environment back then [still is] is making my determination wear down. i think i'm too depressed to get something on my own since i've always been banned to get something i want, nowadays i don't even know what i want, but living alone, or at least i would be, would probably fix it? i don't really know but i want to try, i want to start something but it feels like all of the applications i sent are bad, i'm probably narrowminded na kung living alone = good! i know they'll be ups and downs and probably will face it, the only thing in my mind would probably be just leaving and winging it, but i don't really wanna just 'wing it' rather i'm trying to find a suitable job that can cover it, but alas no one wants me because i'm rather a newbie on the environment/job. so any job would probably suit me, but i think it won't cover anything if i even try to do that.
so i'm probably asking some people on how they dealt with this situation or at least had a backup plan since i really really want to change my atmosphere, my life, my will to live, and probably my first personal space.
sorry in advance kung panget yung mga sinasabi ko or it's probably not even like a good beginning or something, since i have no job, no nothing in my name, and that i'm just thinking on a whim, but i'm probably desperate and want to have something that i can call my own and not because i'm living an expense with my parents who never really congratulated me on anything other than graduating college. otherwise i'm just 'pinapalamon ka lang dito sa pamamahay ko' mindset. i'm really sorry for the post, i'll be glad and appreciated to those na nag bigay ng advice/will be giving me advice. i'm also also sorry na i'm probably just rambling in here or something venting you know, parang vent post lang haha thank you so much!!