u/Inevitable-Phase3230

I am freaking out and I can’t sit down and focus. I am having real trouble with this and I don’t know what to do. I love my uni and I don’t want to leave but I am freaking out about exams and this course. I don’t think I like it. Like any of it. I was terrible at note taking and it took so long to get adjusted to it. I thought in the beginning that it was just a case of getting used to uni as a whole but I realised that I do not like what I am learning. And when I tried to switch it was too late. I wish I didn’t worry about the trivial things and realised that sooner when it wasn’t too late. I tried to talk to my mum about it but I can tell that she is not keen about me changing courses. She said that it will be better after exams are over, but I asked her what if it’s not the case and if I feel the same way now or worse when I go into second year and it will be too late? And she said that I can drop out if uni is stressing me out so much. I don’t want to do that, I don’t know what I will do with myself, I will feel like a complete and utter failure. I also already have society commitments for next year and I will feel more behind in life than I already do. I don’t feel like me and I don’t know what to do. I can’t continue like this.