Pure Evil
It's may 13th , 2026, I'm stressed , burned out again, the same way i felt one day before an important exam. i feel I'm not loved by anyone, even though my family is around me always, my friends are just a phone call away, still it feels empty inside me , i think she has been through this already, and i regret not asking her if she was okay, she loved me so much, the kind of attention and affection no girl gave me, but i pushed her away, she kept coming back, but i pushed her away again and again, until she completely lost her energy, i drained her of her energy, she even told me about that, still i did nothing, i didn't care about her feelings, i just left her , didn't console her , didn't even put bare minimum effort to make her feel okay. She put her whole soul into it because of the false promises i made, i just walked out of it for my own peace. I was okay, happy, felt like i won a game or something after walking out of it, life felt good for a few months, college was almost coming to an end, 0 job offers, still didn't worry , thought i would figure it out eventually, while i was enjoying my solitude to the fullest, and flexing stuff in my stories, she watched, don't know how she might have felt, i thought i would eventually find another girl, as if i was a perfect man and girls gravitate toward me, admired other women, didn't even wished her on her birthday, i remember she waved at me once ,i looked away, what did she do to be treated like that?, she didn't betray me, i acted like she cheated on me, i think not even men who get cheated act like i did. "what goes around comes around" God watches everything, i knew she was very spiritual, how could god forgive me for treating his child so bad. new year , i already started feeling lonely, she posted some notes, "With the softest of glances i would sail as far as eye could see, maybe a few times, maybe a few miles, to impress myself" i wanted to reply to her notes, thought she was healing, and i shouldn't disturb her, after going through all the pain, it took her more than 6 months to heal, i didn't even bother to check in on her once, still she immediately responded when i asked her to pray for me, could've continued conversation and be friends with her, i didn't do, life started punching me on the face, friends were leaving, was feeling lonely again, kept reading those old messages, realized how much she liked me, and how i pushed her away, but the pain of being lonely, and not having anyone to talk to was greater than the regret, wanted to approach her again, i was so evil that i wanted her to love me the same way she did before, by simply apologizing, maybe manipulating her again, God's on her side , he didn't let it happen, she got stronger in emotions, she wasn't falling for my lies again.