A child left my room and i didn’t notice.
throwaway because i feel so incredibly ashamed and disgusted with myself. I feel completely inadequate for my job, which is an emotion i’ve never felt before. I cannot believe this could ever happen under my supervision.
I was alone at ratio in a toddler classroom, 16-24 months. I have been alone for full days in this room multiple times. I was alone the entire day, 3pm we ate snack, i cleanup snack and then we are getting jackets on. i have two children with jackets on so far, my coworkers comes into the room and says “*child* is outside”
to clarify, there is an outside door in the classroom leading to the fenced in playground. my coworker was leaving for the day and saw the child while walking to her car.
i was so shocked and i have no idea how it could have happened. even if the door was unlocked, this was a one year old, the door is heavy.
i have no clue what this child could have been doing outside, there is not camera footage. i am so scared that she could be hurt. when she was brought in she was not crying or in any distress, which i am glad about but there is still a possibility.
currently crying in the bathroom and have been for 30 minutes. i feel like i can’t show my face here ever again.
I love this job, i’ve been here 6 months.
i am an aide, i’ve never taken any child development classes. I’m 19, and i could get charged, i might never be able to work with kids again. I am supposed to start my ece certificate in the fall. but i am reconsidering.
I am so scared, and i feel disgusting.