I've been on citalopram for about a year now. I noticed I don't experience panic attacks anymore or get emotionally overwhelmed. Something distressing will happen and I just feel indifferent about it. But at the same time I can no longer feel happiness or interest in anything anymore.
Even though I had bad anxiety, I still had certain hobbies I would enjoy doing. Now I have no interest in them - it seems like too much effort. And when I do try, I'm not invested in the same way.
Also my marriage is suffering because I don't feel the same love towards my spouse anymore. I just kind of feel flat and indifferent towards them.
The fatigue is also worrying me. Yesterday I slept for 14 hours and still had no motivation to get out of bed. It was a struggle just to cook dinner, which before wasn't that exhausting.
I guess i'm just looking for support from those who have been on this medication. I feel so alone and the doctor just tells me "it's in your head" but I know my baseline personality and how I experience life and this isn't it.
Does it get better over time or do you just become a zombie with no emotions? I'm grateful it helped the anxiety but i'm starting to consider if it's really worth it moving forward.
Thanks for any advice or for sharing your own experience. It helps to feel less alone.