I miss being bored without feeling like I was wasting my entire life
Was sitting around doing absolutely nothing yesterday and immediately felt guilty about it, which is kinda fucked up because doing nothing was basically my favorite thing as a kid. Just lying on the floor while the fan made that annoying clicking noise, reading the same comic for the hundredth time, waiting for somebody to knock on the door. An entire afternoon could be about finding a ball and figuring out whose mom would let us stay out longer. Now I have a free hour and somehow need to spend it improving myself or catching up on twelve things. Even relaxing feels like another job. And yeah childhood wasn't perfect, I remember being bored shitless and wanting to grow up already. That's the annoying part. I got exactly what I wanted and now I'd trade a whole weekend for one random evening where the biggest problem was having to go home because the streetlights came on