Time to Let Go?
My Eng Bulldog/Am Pit mix (9 years, 10 months) went in to have two external growths removed (Not the first growths removed) where they discovered a spleenic mass. Not sure what it is exactly, but all signs are pointing to spleenic cancer: Less appetite, eating grass, distended abdomen, heavy breathing, bloodshot eyes, pale gums etc. I may be playing it up in my head worse than it actually is, but I can't help but feel that time is short with him. He is very energetic, especially on walks, and still gets up to greet me, my Dad, and family friends.
We were supposed to get an x-ray and ultrasound this week but I opted to let him be seeing as he hates the doctors and has high anxiety even on a good day. I just want to leave him be and allow him to enjoy life but I feel as though I'm abandoning him in an hour of need and I'm a lousy pet owner. I'm at a crossroads rn and leaving him to his devices hurts as badly as the thought of saying goodbye. I'm struggling here.