We are all little monsters
We are all little monsters, myself included. I try to do better, i try to not be bad, i try to be compassionate and empathetic and accountable, and humble, but i also think that i am better than others, im self righteous, i hide away from the world and the people that i claim to love so much, and sacrifice so much for ..but yet, im salty, im bitter and it annoys me to spend time with others, the ones who i claim to admire and love. It's not that i hate others, its more that i cant be bothered to share myself, Its kinda hard to explain. Again more egocentric bs, but what am i? Nothing better in anyway, I'm worse even if i let myself think about it. I try to avoid sin, i am aware of it when i deceive myself into it. Im a victim of the flesh and the ego, I'm no better than those that i so eagerly judge, I've seen the best and worst in humanity....actually that's a lie...i haven't been in war, only seen a version of it...but i have seen great and terrible, there is hope i believe. It's not easy, but I'd like to be better. I'm deterring from the spiritual or religious topic, but the seven sins and seven virtues have been something that i have been thinking about a lot over the past decade, more and more so as the future becomes today, and i just wanted to say that i am a little monster, and for that, I'm sorry, im human, im not so smart, but i know when i do things that harm my soul...and yet i continue to do them in not so extreme versions, but nonetheless...i am a little monster, sorry. It's hard, but i will continue to be better.
Thanks for reading my....eh, whatever this is....good luck have fun, and of course, thanks for all the fish.
There is hope.