Needing Support :(
I am a young person (24) with moderate OSA, my diagnosis was kinda of iffy because I was busy in college so I'm not too sure of my AHI (long story). I have my CPAP machine and it literally took me a year to get used to wearing it ~most~ nights and I do feel lots better but I still get stressed out about some things.
Firstly, sometimes I stop breathing with CPAP and wake myself up with my heart pounding. It's almost like I forget to breathe in. I've been reading posts on here and I'm collecting things to bring up to my doctor about setting the pressure.
Secondly, I get so anxious (I already have an anxiety disorder and mild OCD) about health related things, (especially dying in my sleep lol) and one time a coworker told me a buddy of his died from one night of not using the machine while camping... I have to admit I use CPAP about 4/7 or 5/7 nights a week because then I visit my boyfriend who doesn't have a nightstand to put a CPAP machine; or sometimes me and the CPAP are simply not vibing that night due to my chronic stuffy nose 😑. Can you die from not using CPAP just straight up like that?!
Thirdly, My friends and boyfriend are very supportive of me bringing it on vacations and stuff but I still get sad that this is my life :( I look so ugly using it, my nose and cheeks are all squished :( Are people able to keep up a healthy ~love~ life with their partners? Are there more young people out there like me getting used to CPAP life? How often do you wear it? What does your medical support look like as well? I'm considering seeing a pulmonologist since I'm a bit of a hypochondriac. I feel like I'm a terrible mix of pure anxiety and denial! 😖😖😖