Severe disassociative disorder
I have been in therapy for a while working on serious childhood trauma, a lot of it I don't remember and we have been trying to gently uncover potential sexual trauma, but nothing is coming up yet. Today in therapy I was finally able to put a name on episodes I have had for as long as I can remember. I feel out of body, completely Disassociated from my emotions, and feel like the moment I am living in is not real. It is very scary and finally putting a name on it feels so relieving. Anyways, I was talking to my therapist about it and she said she thinks I have severe disassociative disorder. It makes complete sense in hindsight. I do not remember absolutely any of my childhood and I also cannot remember emotions of things that happened in her last few years. We have identified severe blocks and walls that we are having trouble breaking through. When you guys got your diagnosis how did it make you feel? Is it easier to bring yourself back into your body once you realized what it was?