19M ( I'm stuck, help )
Hey , I am all alone . I'm sad , not happy and so glummy . And I can't fix it because I've tried and it never worked ( I think strongly that the only way to fix such an issue is to fight so strongly )
See , my own biological father ( mistreated us from childhood ) growing up like that wasn't fun , I never had a childhood.
Now he is trying get back into our lives , me and my brother but he doesn't like my mom , he always tries to manipulate us to hate her but that'll never work .
I can't ever forgive him so don't ever think I'll have that option.
There was so much missing in my life in my childhood and just of recent , I discovered that I can play chess I'd have been much further if I knew it earlier ( like whole general organization ) I would have grow exponentially if I wasn't thinking of the child torture. Till this day , I'll never forget how much we suffered because of him .
To a point that he tried to kill me because of 5k which was stolen from him , back when I was a very little boy . Had it not been my grandma to save me , I don't think I'd have been alive .
This is all piling up , ps I have school and I can't ready anymore , I do have the brain and the books but I can't get the energy to study , instead I play DLS 26 addictively hoping to get Trezeguet very soon , there's an online league that my friends created , and Everytime I am always checking for updates in the group , this makes me feel like I have nothing to do in my life even when there is so much to do ( math , chemistry , physics )
Btw I'm won the online league and now I'm in the champions league quarter finals
My mom is taking care of us , all I ask is that please tell me what I can do cause I'm so stuck and I need someone to pull me out of this sand dune .
Don't tell me to try to get help , you're the only one I've go right now
I put this in chat gpt , and I got I little bit better but nothing compares to the human touch.