MTF with PSSD
I am mtf and have been on feminizing hrt for 6 years.
When I was a teenager my dermatologist put me on Isotretinoin up to a 80mg/ daily dose. I did this for long courses the longest one being two years.
I think this somehow messed up with my system.
Symptoms:
1- severe genital numbness - I can only sense and get pleasure from the tip of my organ. There is absolutely no sensation or pleasure from being touched on the rest of it.
2- Premature ejaculation and Post Orgasm Illness. Once I organism I am literally knocked out for at least a day. Anhedonia kicks in, and it’s extremely hard to get off the bed or do any task. I recently learned to take hydrocortisone before or after sexual encounter with my partner which helps significantly with the energy and crash but not with the anhedonia
3- After orgasm, this state lasts for roughly 3 days or 4 then slowly I start to recover though only fully at about a week
What helped me a lot is progesterone rectal { I get extreme amount of energy immediately upon the insert, the anhedonia disappears almost fully and I feel like myself again, though the effect only lasts for about 5 hours max once the capsule gets metabolized, If I don’t redose the crash continues. I have a problem with progesterone because it certainly converts to androgens in my body because afterwards I get significantly increased of body hair and some masculanization.
I am looking for alternative things to try, has anyone tried something else that works?