Fellow DMs: Is it better to have a mid table or to not have one at all...?
I'm just looking for some perspective here on this philosophical question: is it better to have a table you are not passionate about or better to not have a table at all--as a DM.
I'm a new DM, I run a relatively small table. I've gotten to a point where I do not want to run a campaign for my current table.
I have fun when I play, because I have a good attitude and I want to provide an amazing fun experience for my players. So they love me as a DM, they keep saying I'll be their DM forever. But I'm bored. If I float the idea of DMing for other people, or adding new people to the table; they argue against it.
So when I play, I have fun, make the best of a situation, but it's not fully joyful because my personal needs for the kind of table I want to run are not being met (I want RP but my player do not RP and just bully their way through with high persuasions). I don't really enjoy putting together sessions anymore, lost inspiration to write lore because people don't RP.
I keep thinking of ending this campaign or retiring this table.... I guess I'm just scared of not finding another D&D group. I have run this table for 2 years and when we first started it was a bigger table, and there was drama so people left. And yet... every week when we play, there is still no high quite like it. Even running D&D for a group that isn't fulfilling my needs is a level of comfort and joy unlike any other.
It was so hard putting this together, I dread how long of another D&D-less drought/life I'll have to go through.
So fellow DMs: is it better to have a table that is just "mid" than to not have one at all?