IM rising PGY2
I really don't know what I'm doing. I'm too scared to ask for help because I'm worried if I ask I might be flagged for something. But I'm going to be a PGY2 soon and soon I'll have an intern under me. I remember starting as a PGY1 I'd always asks my senior for help, but I don't feel like I can be that senior for someone else. I had an ICU rotation 3 weeks ago and I feel like I was functioning at the level of a medical student. This year I felt like I haven't really learned anything at all. I still get nervous while I present and constantly make mistakes. I feel like I'm not taking ownership of my patients but how can I when I don't know what to do. On my alone days without a senior I merely stay the course and don't really advance care. I spent the entire time in medical school doing spaced repetition and I feel like it hasn't translated at all to real life. I'm terrified for July. On top of all that I want to do fellowship and I don't know how I'll make time for research. Any tips or advice? I really could use it.