Hi I am a 30 YO survivor and I just want to share my story.
I was diagnosed november 2024 after two months of pain in my left testicel. I had my first orchiectomy done in december 2024 and then my second in January 2025. and yes.. sadly it had spread to my second testical and now i am left with none. This of course means that i am in testosterone treatment for the rest of my life, and that I am now steril. I had sperm frozen before my first surgery, but due to the cancer the quality of the sperm is extremely low.
Testosteron treatment has not been easy for me. I am a big muscular guy (6.6 feat and 230 pounds) and my energy hasnt been the same since i started. My country is very restrictive with the treatment and I am only given a dose of 1000mg/4ml every 8-10 weeks. After approximately 4-5 weeks my levels drop significantly and i am left feeling 70 years old.. are there any long time TRT users that has any sort of advice on how i can come to terms with this treatment in the long run?
The last 1.5 years has been extremely bumpy for me, and i never felt the relief of being "done" which of course makes sense since i wasnt really done...
In February a CT-scan found that the cancer had spread to several lymph nodes in my lower abdomen. I have had 3xBEP chemo over the last 9 weeks and finished with my last portion og Bleo last Monday.
In January I split up with my girlfriend. We had been together for the last 9 years. The cancer drove us apart and in the end I felt it was best if I set her free. I kinda felt that she didnt give me what I needed and I could see that my mental state and physical situation was really hard on her.
I am stuck with the feeling of this being so unfair. Everyone else gets to live a "normal" life and I just feel stuck mentally and physically. I know that things will be brighter for me in the future, but right now it is just hard.
Hopefully the cancer is gone, but I will have to wait two weeks for the result of my final ct-scan. Crossing my fingers that the BEP worked that I wont have to get surgery aswell.