Any experiences combining Salvia with Lemon Balm Tea?
I once did and it felt like the warm feeling the tea gave me was potentiated and the comeup effects were super relaxing. Not sure it was just a coincidence.
Imagine every time of your life is the page of a book.
What happens if you open the book on Salvia?
Can you read the contents of the page?
How does the page feel like?
Does it produce insight ?
Honestly, this is the thing i've been thinking about a lot, always coming back to in the past days. I remembered something from my past and suddenly felt like "Oh, you could have stopped your suffering at this point. But you wanted to keep going". It was such a matter of fact statement i could not help but agree. This particular memory that is visited on the page...it feels foreign to me yet very important. It's as if someone else experienced that memory not me. Even though i know it was me. Me, who did not react in a "good" way when it happened. It really is hard to explain this feeling or sense. Maybe how i imagine remembering a past life would feel like. A dim sense of belonging? As if we are millions of beeings throughout our lifetime. Every of these little people inside of us are dedicated a page of the book. But looking at the book with the help of Salvia makes you realize: It is only a book. Memories. Foreign memories. All somehow connected but not really part of who you are now.
The "who you are now" is exactly this construction, the glue that holds the pages together.
Years ago i went to see little white men. This time around, it is completly different. Christopher Solomon turned me to the somatic aspect of low dose Salvia. I'm not sure what to make of it.
During my last two experience, i paid attention to my body. It felt as if it was made out of playdoo or wet chalk. I saw myself as the image of a ragdoll waiting to be manipulated in its materiality.
Today especially it felt like my body was projected on a space the body itself inhabited. It was as if parts of my legs were stretching and my eyes were in different positions in a big room i could not see or feel. Most of the time it felt like sitting at the entrance of a cave at night.
After smoking some plain leaf in addition to the quid, it was as if my legs were full of electricity, stiff (still made of wet colored chalk) and starting to raise while me head felt like falling over into something buzzing.
What do you actually made of it? In my first post (https://www.reddit.com/r/Salvia/comments/1t4pc7u/low\_low\_low\_dose\_and\_a\_gentle\_voice/) i had a voice talk to me but that voice never really came back. I don't know what to do with that change in body feeling. It sort of feels like a classic psychedelic trip with a dark vibe where you are actually blind to the visuals but not the body effects.
Its ok to assume that Salvia does not help you construct meaning, but if it does something good to the body - what is it and can i do something in that state? I tried to feel something scary and project it into the trip space which was absolutely impossible. The Situation i imagined just turned into playdoo?
I don't know what to do.
The Savia woman told me i could ask for verification. That there is a gentle voice even at a low dose. 20mg of plain leaf smoked, i tried to feel myself into the space. The presence came to me like a very charming young aunty. Caring and attractive i felt my thoughts run against her and felt what was true and what wasnt. At first i believed to differentiate was done by sides - Salvia on the left, thought moves to the left = true. But then i realized all thoughts are running towards her yet some thoughts felt damaged. Does that make sense, does anyone know what i mean? It was as if i could ask questions and explore them together, see myself as stronger, in a new role. That everythings fitting together. How i relate in this role to others. That theres multiple intelligences sort of conspiring for me?
I had tried Salvia many years ago where i quidded a few grams and had encounters with little men in an underground dome. These experiences were wild, violent at times. But never did i sat down to listen. I could not believe that 20mg smoked can have these effects. Not like i traveled somewhere, or saw something. But the presence would at one point get into a little ball and travel through my body. And then it said, it would stay with me now and that i will see what and how the work is done, that it can be done in many ways. That i need to be prepared, some things need to be worked through but when i asked about details it was always "you will see" and "no need to be worried". And that the next step is to ask for verification, since others would surely tell what i experienced was not just ...placebo? For lack of a better term.
Also other stuff i was told not to share in detail but i could be more broad to get verification. But why do i need verification, why would i write all this if i did not know already what i think cant be true is true afterall?