It feels impossible. I gained over 70 lbs in 2 years. Before that, I had been skinny my whole life. I have never lost weight before, and now I need to. I had been desperately looking for excuses and explanations for why this happened. I’ve been blaming everything except myself. I could not accept the fact that I let this happen- I still can’t believe it was even possible to accidentally do that.
But I’m finally accepting the fact that it’s me. I’m the problem. I have been overeating and not exercising. No more excuses.
I started a deficit a few weeks ago and decided to really take it seriously, really weight everything out and count every calorie. I also got a walking pad and was good about it at first, but now I use it less often. And god damn, I realized how many calories food has. How can people eat 3 meals a day and not over eat? Eating low calorie meals is hard. Especially having to do it for breakfast lunch and dinner. The easiest way I’ve found to do it is to only eat one big meal a day- then I can actually eat what I want and get full. that’s the only way I can stay in a deficit unless I’m eating only small amounts all day and staying hungry.
I don’t know what to do anymore I feel like I’ve tried everything and I just can’t trust myself to stick to it!
Every night I lay awake feeling sick about how much I hate my body, then during the day I make excuses for why I can just eat whatever I want. I feel so exhausted fighting myself on this every day. I don’t know what to do.