Beyond burnt out. About to lose my 3rd job this year, crushing medical debt, and epilepsy is ruining my life.
Sorry, this is a long one..
I honestly don’t even know what to do anymore. I am so tired of fighting my own body and a corporate system that doesn't give a shit about us.
I’m currently staring at my work schedule for next week and it’s basically blank. They only scheduled me Monday through Thursday, and nothing else for the rest of the month. My manager has been completely ghosting me(after I sent him the doctor’s note). This is the exact same corporate tactic I've seen before—they create a tiny buffer so they can transition you out, and then they let you go. If they fire me, this will be the THIRD job I’ve lost this year because of this fucking disease.
All of this started because I ended up in the ER recently. I had 8 seizures in the span of 2 days, hit my head during the seizure, and had to take a week off. Now my doctor has me on a new medications; Lacosamide and Clobazam, the medication whiplash combined with the sheer stress has my body feeling awful today. I feel like I'm on the verge of another focal seizure right now just from the anxiety.
On top of the fear of losing my income, the ER bill just hit and it is hefty. I am completely drowning in financial stress.
To make matters worse, my best friend is getting married and I’m literally her Maid of Honor. Her bachelorette party is coming up, but between this massive medical debt, potentially losing my job, and the fact that I safely cannot fly alone right now, I don’t think I can go (neurologist said if I’m traveling, to have someone with me) I am absolutely devastated. The thought of having to break her heart and tell her I can’t make it is making me sick to my stomach.
I feel so incredibly isolated. People around me in my offline life keep telling me "don't worry, it'll be fine," which feels like a total slap in the face. It’s not fine. My livelihood is hanging by a thread, my health is deteriorating, and nobody seems to get the psychological torture of just waiting for the axe to drop on Monday morning.
I just needed to put this somewhere where people actually understand. How do you guys cope when everything crashes down at once? Because right now, I just feel completely trapped.